Don't be fooled when I am out and happy that my heart is healed.
Don't be fooled when you see me making jokes, thinking I am all better.
Don't be fooled when I am laughing and smiling that I am somehow less broken.
Don't be fooled by the face I put on in public.
The reality is that my life will never be the same. I will never be the same. I will survive this ordeal - mostly due to the fact that I know I have to go on for my other boys, but really because of the strength I get from my husband.
He sees me in my weakest moments, crying and broken and just wants to somehow make it better - even though he knows he can't.
Just don't be fooled.
I just found your blog! I will read more tomr. I have been thinking about you quite a lot. It must still be very hard for you. I want to know if there is anything that I can do for you? I know you from reading your posts at DD's and had not seen you post since Chris' death until today. Sending you big ((((HUG))))
ReplyDeleteThis is a very beautiful post and really rings so true!
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